![]() ![]() While Christine’s mother saw the move as an opportunity to “get out of the city” and start fresh, the new language and culture led to “a tornado of emotions” for the seven-year-old. And when her mother eventually re-married, Christine also had a problem with the “new man” in her life. Not feeling entirely welcome in her new step family left her with a serious case of “orphan syndrome,” and Christine desperately longed for an escape. And that’s precisely where music came in. It was her bliss in the midst of the chaos, and Christine gave herself completely to it. Finding kindred spirits in Crystal Lewis and Jaci Velasquez, artists who were both bilingual like she was, Christine loved singing along with anything that came in a performance track and entered numerous singing contests. Basically whenever she couldn’t cope with what life threw at her, she found an oasis in song. Unfortunately, not even music could keep her from trouble once she entered her teen years. In the midst of obeying her call to ministry, she was living a double life while experiencing college. Longing for love and acceptance, she found that in the arms of the wrong guy. When that long relationship eventually soured, all the loss Christine felt came back with a vengeance, and before long, she’d all but given up on a relationship with God. Loose living, a preference for darker, depressing music, even a couple of attempts at taking her own life became the new normal. Sadly, her portrait of what a father looked like was distorted because she felt like anyone who was ever close to her ended up leaving. “I was very mad at God,” Christine shares. “I even started using His word against Him. In Scripture it talks about the behaviors that grieve the Holy Spirit, so that’s exactly what I did. I was the biggest jerk ever, hanging out with the atheists, weed smokers and slackers. ![]()
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